Résumés
Abstract
What draws the ADHD brain to a job like librarianship? I was diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 42, five years into my career as a teaching librarian at a large public university. As I talked to colleagues and interacted with fellow librarians online, I noticed a trend of librarians being open and honest about their neurodivergence. As a result, this autoethnography explores my personal experience as a teaching librarian with ADHD. I will outline how ADHD affects my role in the following areas: being part of a team, leading a classroom, collaborating with faculty, and managing planning, grading, and communications. I explore these themes through six common ADHD traits: idealism, being an empath, rejection sensitivity dysphoria, being scatter brained, imposter syndrome, and hyperfocus. I will explore how these traits affect me daily, as well as how they have affected my career trajectory.
Keywords:
- academic librarian,
- ADHD,
- librarian,
- neurodivergence,
- teaching
Résumé
Qu'est-ce qui attire le cerveau TDAH vers un métier comme celui de bibliothécaire ? On m'a diagnostiqué un TDAH à l'âge de 42 ans, cinq ans après le début de ma carrière de bibliothécaire enseignant dans une grande université publique. En discutant avec des collègues et en interagissant avec d'autres bibliothécaires en ligne, j'ai remarqué une ouverture et franchise grandissante chez les bibliothécaires au sujet de leur neurodivergence. Par conséquent, cette auto-ethnographie explore mon expérience personnelle en tant que bibliothécaire enseignant neurodivergeant. Je décrirai comment le TDAH affecte mon rôle dans les domaines suivants : faire partie d'une équipe, diriger une classe, collaborer avec le corps enseignant et gérer la planification, la notation et les communications. J'explore ces thèmes à travers six traits communs au TDAH : l'idéalisme, l'empathie, la dysphorie de la sensibilité au rejet, l'éparpillement, le syndrome de l'imposteur et l'hyperfocalisation. J'examinerai comment ces traits de caractère m'affectent au quotidien et comment ils ont influé sur ma trajectoire professionnelle.
Mots-clés :
- bibliothécaire,
- bibliothécaire universitaire,
- enseignement,
- neurodivergence,
- TDAH
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